A rant on friendship.

It comes at no surprise that I value friendship.  It's something that is very important to me.
Some people once they are grown don't need friends like I need friends.  Some people are perfectly fine and feel that their life is solidified in their family only.  I don't think it's a bad thing for me to say that it's not enough for me.  Now don't get me wrong I love my family 100 million percent but I need to have a social outlet.  I need to have friendships.  However it is kinda sad when you think that you are the only one that feels this way.  And honestly I do feel that I am the only one that puts a lot of weight and thought into friendship.  I say this because 99.9% of the time I am the one that is out seeking friends. I am the one making plans to get together.  I am the one that gets cancelled on.  I pretend it doesn't bother me, but it does.  I don't want to sound mean but I am a busy person.  My business schedule is planned and booked out now till September.  But I leave days open to spend with my family and I leave days open to spend with my friends.  I BLOCK OUT TIME.  So I get really sad and down on myself when I get cancelled on.  In the last month I have planned 10 friend outings and only 1 lunch worked out.  :( .  Now one lunch did get cancelled because Ava was sick and Ava was going to be going with me so that one is on me.
I just wish I didn't put so much weight on friendships so I didn't get my feelings hurt.
Okay end rant.