Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
*did that title scare you?...bwahhhhhhhh!*
I know I asked a LONG time ago...but I am going to ask again...because I am going crazy....as in..put me in a straight jacket, and lock me in a rubber room coo-coo!
Should I cut...or grow?
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Now the real story
So I was off to the South Town Expo center to get my luscious lashes done...and I was already running behind. When I arrived at the large and spacious building of many expositions I found myself in the middle of a war....a parking war. Apparently the Gun Show was at the Expo Center and so was all the ammo craving, mullet wearing, camo loving, gun collecting population. This I was not expecting. I did not come prepared to fight such a parking war. I did not have on my bullet proof armor nor did I have my bazooka...cause I don't own a bazooka, or a gun, or a camo vest.
So here I am defenseless completely vulnerable to the masses of ready to fight drivers. I drove around for a good 30 minutes waiting ever so patiently to find a spot. I even gave up a spot I was going to take to a camo wearing gramps. (Oh I'm so nice).
After 30 minutes of war games...I see it....A spot is going to come available.
*scene set up*
I am behind a white car which is a good 10 car lengths ahead of me...... Grandpa and Son walk out from behind a row of cars about 5 car lengths ahead of me. They walk towards their truck. Only two stalls from where I am. AWESOME. I put on my blinker. Meanwhile...white car...turns around completely (in the middle of the isle...a six point turn around) and drive towards me...puts on her blinker. I see her roll down her window and yell something to the men. Now the truck pulls out, and I look at the lady and said...I was here first that is my spot. I speedily pull my cute little automobile into the briefly vacant space....as the lady is yelling at me saying that this is her spot. Whatever lady I was here before you. Before I even had a chance to get out of my car...the lady seriously came up to my window and knocked on it. (I know you are laughing...I was laughing too) This is what she said "This was my spot....I asked the guys if I could have it." apparently that is what she was yelling when she rolled her window down. I nicely replied "I'm sorry if you asked them if you could have the spot. I was here before you even got here...and you had to turn around to reach this spot....I'm sorry but you'll have to find another." Then she said this (this is really great). "well I hope you have a nice day, and you feel good about what you did. I asked those gentleman if I could have this spot and they said yes..you didn't ask...." wait for it..... "this is stealing". BWAHHHHHH! I then told the lady I felt good about myself and I was going to sleep fine.
I'm telling you...it was a war zone! And I stole someones parking space!! Oh the humanity!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Some of you friends out there are not going to agree with me on this.
There was a point in my life I wanted to be a contestant on the Biggest Loser. (No I have never been large enough to actually be considered....but I sent in a tape once) I thought about how great it would be to lose large amounts of weight in a short time. To have a trainer telling me what to do, and what to eat. To be able to only concentrate on losing weight, and nothing else. How great does that sound? Actually I should ask...How delusional does that sound?
I know some of you out there are so in love with the Biggest Loser...feeling that it is so inspirational. But when I have dissected the Biggest Losers philosophy...it is nothing but UNHEALTHY!
As someone who is currently healing and going through the recovery process of an active eating disorder (ED) I would love to point out...why this show drives many to unhealthy weight loss expectations, eating disorder behaviors and even eating disorders.
*Extreme Weight Loss in an Extremely Short Time Span!
When I first started treatment for my Ed I was told this by my therapist "A quick fix is bound for a quick failure". This is how I look at this show. These contestants are expected to lose an ridiculous amount in a short time. From my understanding most of the contestants gain back half and sometimes all of the weight they have lost after leaving the final show.
I can not remember who it was, there was a gentleman who broke a one week record of 31 pounds lost in one week (I might be off the figure a little). Though this is extraordinary, you have to consider that some of the weight loss is not body fat. There are 3,500 calories per pound of fat. That means he would have had to use more than 108,500 calories in that one week. This kind of fat loss would practically be science fiction, kind of like what you saw in the movie Nutty Professor with Eddie Murphy. Why is this? It goes back to "A quick fix is bound for a quick failure." (in addition to some other factors, which I will state.) That weight is bound to come back. Unrealistic!
Bringing me to the next point...UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS!
Is this kind weight loss is achievable? I must say that it appears that it can be. I remember when I lost an extreme amount of weight when I first aggressively started losing weight a few years back. I was literally eating nothing, less then 1200 calories, and burning an excess of 3000+ calories a day. I was working out at least 4 hours a day. Though it was possible to lose a lot of weight in one week as body fat, it felt like I was exercising from morning to night. I was also limited to a particular diet deplete of any junk-food. This is also the case for the Biggest Loser contestants. In the real world, you have your time filled with work, family, and only Heaven knows what else. They eat minimal calories and purge all of their calories through exercise. Some of you may say..."but you have to burn more calories then you eat to lose weight." But they way they are exercising is unhealthy. Many people think that "purging" is only done by self induced vomiting, however it is not. It is also done by laxative use, and EXCESSIVE EXERCISE! They work out for a minimum of 4 hours a day...that is considered excessive exercise. (sorry to break it to you.) That is not Healthy..I don't care who you are.
FYI...your body needs AT LEAST 1200 Calories a day to even run for a female and 1500 calories for a male (that is just to function) On the biggest loser ranch it is reported that most contestants eat less then 1100 calories a day (you do the math)
Exercising while on such low diet
You are losing tons of muscle, which is what burns the most calories for you. When the calories is too low, then the body is put in a semi-starvation state. As once body’s blood sugar supplies are used up, the body breaks down protein stores–muscle mass and enzymes to help create more blood sugar that the brain and blood cells needs to survive.
Not mentioning extreme exercise or over-exercising, just trying to exercise while on such low calories diet will worsen the situation, as the body’s starvation state is exacerbated because the exercise calls for even more energy.
Massive gain after massive loss
A millions of people shed massive of weight quickly, but they gained it back when they return to normal eating or normal life, because most of the weight loss is due to the muscle and fluid loss. And no one can sustain on 500-1000 calories for the rest of their life, and you cannot get all of the nutrients and vitamins your body needs with only 1000 calories.
In conclusion, stop dieting on such low calories and over-exercising, which is very unhealthy and very dangerous, and stop losing weight so quickly and make changes that you will actually be able to sustain for the long run, that’s how you will be able to maintain your weight and achieve long-term weight loss or fat loss.
Since I have been in treatment for Ed..and before I had Ava I gained 50% of my weight back...why? because I was eating such low calories, purging, and over-exercising. Believe me.....this is why most of the Biggest Loser Contestants gain their weight back. (or parts of it)
When a contestant on the Biggest Loser only loses 1,2,3,4 even 7 pounds they are devastated. Heck....you just lost 4 pounds in a week AWESOME. Instead they are completely torn up about it...their teammates give them so much guff because of it...then you "fall below the yellow line"... Talk about a downer. This isn't good for their mental health, which can lead to eating disorder lies such as "the more weight you lose the more beautiful you are." or "you didn't lose enough weight you are a loser...next week you must eat less and burn more." UNHEALTHY!
Then there is the Humiliation Factor. It is completely degrading to put those people in those outfits to weigh in. As they are not already humiliated enough (yes I know they are the ones that applied for the show) to stand on the scale and let the whole world know they weigh 400 pounds, but they make them weigh no shirt, or sports bra, and tight shorts. Then when they are working out they are constantly yelled at by their skinny trainer who supposedly loves them, and told who pathetic they are. Some say it is tough love, but I don't see an ounce of love.
So now you know how this ED victim feels about the Biggest Loser...I think if you are looking to lose weight, that is wonderful and lovely....but trying it out biggest loser style isn't the way. We are way to quick to jump on the next biggest fad diet. Weight loss should be a lifestyle change and the road isn't fast to get there. "A quick fix is a quick failure."
Monday, April 13, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
So I got curious and decided to look it up...
FOLKS it really is called a WEINESS!
I'm sorry friends..but my elbow now makes me want to blush!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
In addition to being a self-proclaimed blog stalker I have decided I that I need to be better about leaving comments on those of you who I admittedly stalk blogs. I am sorry I truly suck at this. I want you to leave comments here on my corner of the web....and so I am going to start being better about telling you what I think of you too. *I mean that as nice as possible*
So come out of the closet.....admit that you love stalking me as much as I love you stalking me. HA! No for real....don't be shy leave me your blog addy...so I don't have to pretend I don't know it anymore!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
I have found that in my efforts in being a good wife and momma I've lost myself. I find defining myself in the tasks that make me good at my job of being a stay at home mom, and homemaker. And in my culture (I say mine..because all of you aren't from Utah, and not all of you are LDS) it seems that unless you completely lose yourself in those two things then you are some how less righteous. As if it is more noble to be overwhelmed, and busy all the time. And if you happen to admit that you aren't busy all the time, or overwhelmed and okay with it...then you are not as righteous.
I am sorry but I think that is a load of honky! I am fine with not making myself run ragged all the time. I am happy that I take time for myself.
Don't get me wrong I adore being a momma and wife....but how can we be good at those things if we aren't good to ourselves. It is okay to say No to things when we are asked. I say no all the time. (Ask Elle...ASK Dave for that matter..hehehe) It's okay to not have dinner on the table right when your hubby gets home...and sometimes it's even okay to tell him you aren't cooking that night because you just don't feel like it.
I was a women before I ever was a mom, and when my kids are grown and raising their children I don't want to have to re-learn how to take care of myself. Or even to not want to take care of myself because I took care of others for so long. Ladies it is okay to be selfish sometimes. There is nothing noble in never taking care of you....where you no longer feel special, loved and wanted. I don't think God would want it that way.
I am tired of hearing friends complain that they have NO time for themselves because they are a mom! For real....you're not more righteous because you go go go all the time...you're not more holy because dinner is on the table at 4:59, and you are certainly not more celestial qualified because you put everyone else's needs before your own. God holds women to the highest of esteems...and you should hold yourself to that as well. Now get off your fanny...go take a shower...brush your teeth...look in the mirror and say "I love you".
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Yes amigos I know I just had a super adorable cutie patottie baby 3 1/2 months ago....but still.....I am super discouraged...and have a perma-frownie. Out of 42 pairs of super cute pantaloons.........only one pair fits...my post baby tush!