But oh no I can't!
Too many people would hear!
Today has been an emotional day! I really can't explain why and I really don't want too...but I can say that it has made me sad.
So I've been doing really good with my ed. I haven't purged (yes you know what I mean) for four months!!!! This is a very good thing. I have been filling my life with things I love and things that make me happy. HOWEVER today has kinda taken a big hit to my self esteem and I have wanted to purge so bad!!!! I just keep thinking it will make me feel better about myself, but then I know afterwards I will feel even worse. I can't ever win.
So I am trying my hardest to stay away from the bathroom....i've even peed with the door open (yes tmi!)
I don't want to throw these 4 months away...but I just feel so bad about myself now.
DEBBIE DOWNER....OH JEEZE....Sorry friends!
I'm way sad so I'll leave you with a little